Another day of contemplation and no action. I think I need a date and some sex. Maybe just a date, or maybe just some sex. Or, maybe I need to get drunk or high. I need to go back to some of my self destructive habits. I know I haven't given up the fiscal irresponsibility which provided me with little highs of happiness with purchases. However when I shop it doesn't make me laugh till my guts hurt.
Honestly I haven't had a really good laugh in a long time. I've had some little laughs and chuckles here and there but nothing where I choke, sputter and pee my pants. Man oh man, the good old days!
Speaking of peeing my pants... I need to test my bladder surgery/sling thing. A good laugh would be a great test.
I tell you this delusional world I live in is so real to me. There are times when the world is crashing in on me, then suddenly the sun comes out and I think it will be ok. Ok, that is, until the next bill arrives then the cycle starts all over again. Talk about peaks and valleys!
Alice and her Wonderland friends
itsjustme
There are days I drop words of comfort on myself like falling rain & remember it is enough to be taken care of by my self.
Me and my perfect dog
Or, my perfect dog and I
The Roomie
When she was much younger
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