wow, forgot this existed

I didn't remember that this existed. My thoughts haven't changed much over the past 3 years. Maybe a little lonelier, not so optimistic. Miss my children desperately, but still know I can't go back. I met many people on the net over the years. Made some very close connections, east coast, west coast, mid America. All I have been chatting with for almost 3 years. Met a few in person, funny those didn't stay. I obsess obsessively over relationships and hate the Internet support of dishonesty. You'd (well.. I did) think that in this medium people would feel freer to be who they really are, not hide behind lies and false pretences. When I joined this club I threw myself out there to be had. Everyone was made aware of my wants needs and who I really was. I believed what I was told, I trusted those who interested me. I am amazed at the shit that people don't think twice about saying, backing up lies till they almost become truth, continuing a lie for months, years! It kills me and makes me very fucking angry.